heyss...
life's not so good for me this few weeks...so tired of life..frustrations of my mum going on me.every little single thing i do or say.she comments and leads it somehow jus link it to her frustrations.and get all the shit for her for doing nothing.i dont know what shit is this...i've been bearing with all this since i came.i dunnoe whether i should retaliate or what.it's so hard to bear with this.i mean like.what the hell.it's not my fault that u're angry.then u let out all ur anger on me.jus doing something minor like not wanting to eat the bread she bought.she talks all the crap and leads it to her anger.and i get all of it frm her.wth.what kinda day is this.im getting it everyday.tests are this week.i dunnoe how.i dont think im gonna do well at all.jus a pass at most.i dunnoe what am i gonna do.school sux.i have at least 1 friend now my singaporean friend.wells ang mohs are jus so diff.they always stick in their cliques as well.they dun open up.they suk.it's not like i dont try.im missing pple.im worried bout u especially u jesselene.i dont know what to do now.how i wish i was there.and no1's here for me wth...things are going through my mind.love,hatred,confusion,work,assignments,career,friends. i dont know what to do.im lost.this life sux.without my bro and sis.nothings working.it's so boring.frustrating.dont even have my broadband which i suppose to already have last week.it's so freaking irritating.no study table whatever.mum complaining.scolding me for no reason.i dont know what's wrong.it's so hard.she never think bout me.thinks only for herself.how do i feel.how the hell does she know.talk to others,she cant be so nice whatever only to me BAH...shit comes out.guess what i dont even have a tv.what the hell man.the person who i need is in singapore,what am i suppose to do.fly back?even calling doesnt help much.JESSELENE...I CANT WAIT FOR JULY..i've to wait till then to burst.what the hell man.it's so frustrating.wait till so long.what cheered me up was amelia my meimei.her nick really cheered me up.it was like "he is gone now,i miss him soo much!when will he ever come back!?" i was asking her.wah got boyfriend already ah..she said..NO im refering to u then i was like...awwww...cutie *hugs*.. haha...btw using laptop really sux.im using laptop.no choice cos i can move it to use the damn dial up.my comp is lying there dieing.and im thinking bout love.i know im too young but i dont know.i feel.i may never get married.im toking crap.am i?am i not.i dont know.that's what i feel.i want something i cant have.but i dont want to have what i can have.thinking bout career.music is what i wanna do.but i donno.im lousy.im not good at all.now studying is stressing me.how am i supposed to be like practicing.i dont know anymore.im blurred,confused.im feeling everything.im going craazy.

Bablee
fell in love with music @ 7:33 AM

heyy people..sorrie bout the delay post.hahahah =P
wells...schools beginning to be awright...wells..pple out there..science fomulas here..they use a freaking calculator which cost 100+ bucks..u can store ur fomulas and like definations of like atoms blablabla..it's shit stuff..plus u can have like games in it.and maths?u can draw graph in the calculator..and LOTS more..it's crap...wells..getting to move in soon.2 assignments so far shitty assignments like social studies bout WAR...lol..wells..and music video production assignment on singers in the fiftys.any suggestions on who?except elvis..that's boring.wells...yesterday soo funny i had like my mechatronics class.this asian gal keep like coming closer and closer to me..whoah..scary....haha kiddin.she's nice la.talked to her.she asked me how to dis and stuff.she has a cute personality.but wells.hahaha...im not into girls now.i'm a nervous freak who cares to study.cos i need to ADJUST..hahaha...wells...guys here are cool too.made a few friends out there.yeah.but there jus this girl...kaox..she is sooo hot.cannot stand it.lol.she's so cute when her face turns all red.and rosy.wahahah...hope to get to know her.she's quiet only talks with her friends =X.kinda like me ah ^^ cheh..tok kok nia.wells...i need my COMP..dam i miss my songs.still using my cous comp.my comp jus checked today.things in it blew up some stuff.dunnoe how...need to change.wells..hopefully get it fixed soon.sian a lot of homeowrk le...today ang bao got 3...not bad..lol..which is actually.. BAD...wells i miss singapore so much man.sigh i'll be coming back in july only.siann...wells what's cool is that they have 2 weeks of hols every term. heehee =]. okay that's kinda bout it.thanks pple for tagging yeah.do cont to tag pls.this blog is dieing.okayokay. i LOVE u JESS!take care of urself =] u aint no lil girl but u'll always be a lil girl to me . cos..U NEED ME TO TAKE CARE OF U...lol small girl.dun worrie i come here u out by calling ur house tmr =] .ah yes forgot i met my another cousin who i didnt know.my mums cousin's wife's sister's daughter. coolios.her name is su ching i think or soo ching dunt know how to spell.spend the night playing x box halo 2 with terrence(cousin)dev(his gf) dean and his gf.funn stuff..okay take care. guys

Bablee
fell in love with music @ 9:22 AM

heyys.
wassup people?hahaha wells.im back blogging lol.wells long time since i blogged or rather.since my last saying i was gonna start blogging lol.end up i also never blog.now very bored la so jus do it again =] haha thanks for all ur tags and all.=] wells leaving the airport that day was bad..teary man.i couldnt believe..i teared.wells. i guess u see how much i care for u all ian matthew shaun blablabla...too many to mention yeah?thanks for coming.to those hu came =X.wells.it's a sad ending for me in singapore.lotsa probs left.i guess it's 1 of the best ways to leave my probs aside.i didnt care =].hahah wells forget bout that part but wells.aust great.jus that it's summer man HOT!....lol still getting things done man.havent even got my house yet.gonna rent 1 bungalow.shioks...lol..houses here are so cheap.unbelievable.i saw my fav cars there too...damn rx8 is only 55k mann..haha..saw my fav supra there too man.full body kit and all.lol..wells..these few days have been playing some lame ragnarok lol...wells nothing to do what..gotta say it's quite fun lol.wells...the pple in singapore start messaging.wwah flooded ah that time.but now see quiet.jus as expected it's all like that.only great friends do tok to me =] thanks matt iann jesselene.love u 3 most =] ohh yA!!!faith meimei!u're impt too =] the rest...i guess u're jus friends =].thanks for a being a friend.im gonna start school like this monday.cool rite.1 month hols hahahah...now then start school heh...wels..gonna get new elec guit...new stuff...damn school have to wear black leather shoes..lames...uniforms.got so many..so expensive...goodness....probably getting a new phone...bla....yeah lots of things to do la....school starting..sian...hai i mus go arnd asking.will u be ma friend.lol...that's ians fav quote lol...wells..guess not gonna write too much.soo yeahh.. cya

Bablee
fell in love with music @ 5:39 AM

harlow!
heh finally started blo9ging ahx notting much to do as holidays are alreadi here.wells i got a new comp yesterday father bought it for me ah or rather actually sunday larh cos it's alreadi 4 23 pm liddat so ya.bought parts of the comp and bro teached me how to fix a comp so i'll noe how next time.then i went to play pool today with shaun wahahah he only won 1 game aiyah i bully wahaha.quite fun larhs then after that hmm i went home got this weird drink.sarsi ice.damn all the ices are coming out.but it taste same to me for sarsi iCE though heh my fav still pepsi fire shiok.then mum and sis came back not long after i reached home so played x box with ma sis then went simpang bedok with ma bro and clifton his friend drink teh o blahhh tok kok la.then came back tried to fix my comp programs.damnit i cant install everything yet still blur so tmr then ask my bro to fix la so currently using fathers laptop la.sian man lucky got some1 sms me keep me company so glad and it was till late man thanks so much=] for replying since i was bored heh.wells gonna slp soon la so take care pple bleah
God Bless

Bablee
fell in love with music @ 1:20 PM